Because I actually got a job and it's really cool there. I'm apparently being trained by the best and will be able to demand good money if I go anywhere else. And he plans on keeping me for a while. Which is wicked awesome because I didn't mind the shift. Mind you, it'll probably be getting a lot harder on Monday since there'll be a lunch rush. And I won't have the woman who was training me to help D: But I guess I'll get used to it, and I just have to try to keep it nice and clean. But I also need to learn how to be swift about it...
Anyway, that was a little rambly. I'm still annoyed with people my age. Sure I can be friends with them, but they annoy me. But I guess I'm just a teenager who's always been told that I'm so smart and mature *bullshit*. I believed it quite a lot when I was younger, but now I just seem bitter. It's not even expectation that has me bitter, but it just seems like they're saying it for nothing. I feel like I try to make myself out to seem smarter than I am. How? I have no fucking clue.
I just hate people the same age as me. I think I also hate people in general.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Nyurnyurnyur
I hate having to identify with other trans*guys. I really do. Part of the reason is an unidentifiable person, who's MtF, and the other reason... I can't take other trans* people seriously. Even though I'm still the same age as most of them, they disgust me. They seem fake, and that it's just a fad.
I don't see myself as trans. I'm just a guy. With some annoying baggage, but I've found someone who's genderless and accepts me. I accept them as equal and we carry on. I don't know how we just do, but we do, and it's nice not having to fret over EVERY FUCKING THING.
We currently live in a small basement suite. My partner's been working for the past four months at a coffee shop, but is starting to hate it there. I had a job as a warehouse worker in an auctioneer place, but I haven't been given any hours since my first week. I'm looking for another job, but seem to be quite unsuccessful. I'm going out to apply, for the third time this week. I think I should improve my resumé. How? I have no fucking clue. But I need a job. I'm thinking of trying to find a dishwasher or possibly even busser job. ...If I have to, I might even apply to where ... used to work. Tis a good thing she lives on the opposite side of the city.
I don't feel like I can get a job... It's sort of annoying. And making me feel a little hope/worth-less. Why the fuck is it so hard to find a full time job? It's making me hate society even more, now. Not that my views of society were ever all that high.
I don't see myself as trans. I'm just a guy. With some annoying baggage, but I've found someone who's genderless and accepts me. I accept them as equal and we carry on. I don't know how we just do, but we do, and it's nice not having to fret over EVERY FUCKING THING.
We currently live in a small basement suite. My partner's been working for the past four months at a coffee shop, but is starting to hate it there. I had a job as a warehouse worker in an auctioneer place, but I haven't been given any hours since my first week. I'm looking for another job, but seem to be quite unsuccessful. I'm going out to apply, for the third time this week. I think I should improve my resumé. How? I have no fucking clue. But I need a job. I'm thinking of trying to find a dishwasher or possibly even busser job. ...If I have to, I might even apply to where ... used to work. Tis a good thing she lives on the opposite side of the city.
I don't feel like I can get a job... It's sort of annoying. And making me feel a little hope/worth-less. Why the fuck is it so hard to find a full time job? It's making me hate society even more, now. Not that my views of society were ever all that high.
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